Great Expectations

今天上课，和以往一样没什么练习，只是抱着“不管了，被骂就被骂，死就死的心态”。所以练习的时候，一半也是情绪波动，我好像很生气地，毫无精力的，疲累的，随便的练完就算。怎知，我突然觉得，我练得越来越起劲，我的心情越来越痛快。好几个月学不到的曲子，我突然间爱上了。真的好神奇啊！我突然间好像觉悟似的，心中的不满突然间消失了。但我还是担心自己的水平差强人意，所以上课的时候还是战战兢兢的，不敢怠懈。这是奇迹出现了，我告诉老师我不想再练我做不好的曲子，可是老师坚持要练，我就这样随便随心情的练。怎知有时一个大打击，老师夸我练得非常好！

这就奇怪了，原来不是每一首曲子都是要细心的去练，就像人一样，每一个人都不一样，不一样的风格，不一样的思想，不一样的背景，不一样的环境。这些种种的不一样，就是要让我们理解，大自然的奥妙，人类的智慧。不是每一件事情，每一个个案都用同一个方法解决。人与人之间，也有隔阂，有欢乐。不一样的思想，意见，看法也使人与人之间产生摩擦。所以，学习放下能够让生命继续走下去。

老师说，有时候，把东西握得太紧或太过细心，会把事情弄巧反拙。放松一下，再做冲刺，效果或更好。就像一条橡皮带一样，拉得太久，就会失去弹性，偶尔放松一下，在于想不到的情况当中，我们可能能够拉得更长更远。

放下其实并不简单，不容易做到。放下不代表放弃，是一种让自己充电的时刻，回归自然，寻找自我，确认方向，充实自己。在我们人生中，好好爱护好自已的心，是一种感恩的表现。做会原来的自已，感动自己。

a melaccan went to visit melaka??? oh ya, that’s me… hahahaha… this is the first time i went to melaka, with a bunch of my classmates=) well, it was indeed a memoriable memory… my first task as Ketua Kumpulan as the class to organise a trip… (they all ar, other KK before me dun wanna go ar, now baru wanna go) anyway, it’s not really a big task to organise it actually, i’m very touched that all that went to that trip co-operate well n the smiling photo we took are indeed the smiles n happiness from our heart… we went to the zoo, the museums, the shopping centre, the cruise, jonker street, tamingsari tower… n we also bought something for our tutor (a painting), but hey, we kena tipu… it’s a PhoToStaT-pirated-X-goods.. hahahahaha… anyway, we walked a lot.. no kidding A LOT!!! during our journey… n it rained cats n dogs during the evening… but whatever happen, all of us still stick in one piece…=)

to me, i’ve never dream that this trip will be a success, i was still in a blur state when i went there. but seriously it all went well smoothly n happily. i hope in years to come, these wonderful pictures will remain fresh in our hearts.

nowadays i feel myself getting okd and older… wanna know why?

physically i’m not that energetic anymore like the good old days… when i was so full with zest and anxiety most of the time… hahahahhaa… nowadays, i just feel i’m more not-so-cho-lo type girl anymore… (cho-lo in hokkian means ganas la)… i can sit down quietly to sew, to read, to cook… that’s not the main point, the main point is, i can sit down to do a thing for a VERY LONG TIME… i was not like that in the past, i can multitask most of the time, like doing homework while eating and watching tv… sometimes can listen to radio also.,, hahahahaha…but now, i just seldom do that anymore…

well, i guess age changes me a lot… during my younger time, my main priority is studies.. i wanna excel in everything i do… so i’m a very pak-bia girl=) (pak bia in hokkian is work hard)… but what’s my aim? i do not know. but now, i slowly regain my senses, that what i did last time was not a waste, my aim is to contribute to the society… yea, being a teacher is one of the path… educating, well, tough work, but great job, selfless n heartwarming…=)

well, i’m glad that i’m getting wiser. even though just a little bit… (don’t laugh at me la…) at least, i do not feel 21 blanks years behind me achieving n retriving nothing from life… well, i do have some small achievement anyway… hehehehehe… clever me…=) **clap clap calp**

i feel great being old, just physically, i don’t have much reserved battary inside me anymore… hahahahaha… guess i gonna sleep early n take a rest whenever i can…

oh ya, happy getting old to everyone too…

Hey guys, these are great stories to share with… wonderful stories…=)

The Turtles

A turtle family decided to go on a picnic. The turtles, being naturally slow about things, took seven years to prepare for their outing. Finally the turtle family left  home looking for a suitable place. During the second year of their journey they found a place ideal for them at last!

For about six months they cleaned the area, unpacked the picnic basket, and completed the
arrangements. Then they discovered they had forgotten the salt. A picnic without salt would be a disaster, they all agreed.  After a lengthy discussion, the youngest turtle was chosen to retrieve the salt from home. Although he was the fastest of the slow moving turtles, the little turtle whined, cried, and wobbled in his shell. He agreed to go on one condition: that no one would eat until he returned. The family consented and the little turtle left.

Three years passed and the little turtle had not returned. Five years…six years… then on the seventh year of his absence, the oldest turtle could no longer contain his hunger. He announced that he was going to eat and begun to unwrap a sandwich.

At that point the little turtle suddenly popped out from behind a tree shouting, ‘See! I knew you wouldn’t wait. Now I am not going to go get the salt.’

[Some of us waste our time waiting for people to live up to our expectations. We are so concerned about what others are doing that we don't do anything ourselves.]

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The Frogs

A farmer came to town and asked the owner of a restaurant if he could use a million frog legs. The restaurant owner was shocked and asked the man where he could get so many frog legs! The farmer replied, ‘There is a pond near my house that is full of frogs - millions of them. They all croak all night long and they are about to make me crazy!’  So the restaurant owner and the farmer made an agreement that the farmer would deliver frogs to the restaurant, five hundred at a time for the next several weeks.

The first week, the farmer returned to the restaurant looking rather sheepish, with two scrawny little frogs. The restaurant owner said, ‘Well… where are all the frogs?’   The farmer said, ‘I was mistaken. There were only these two frogs in the pond.   But they sure were making a lot of noise!’

[Next time you hear somebody criticizing or making fun of you, remember, it's probably just a couple of noisy frogs. Also remember that problems always seem bigger in the dark. Have you ever laid in your bed at night worrying about things which seem almost overwhelming like a million frogs croaking? Chances are pretty good that when the morning comes, and you take a closer look, you'll wonder what all the fuss was about.]

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The Pretty Lady

Once upon a time a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge was damaged. They had to wade across the river. There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn’t cross the river. The big monk offered to carry her across the river on his back. The lady accepted.

The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. ‘How can big brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?’ thought the little monk. But he kept quiet. The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her.

All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kinds of accusations about big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation.

Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. ‘How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite’

The big monk looked surprised and said, ‘I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?’

[This very old Chinese Zen story reflects the thinking of many people today. We encounter many unpleasant things in our life, they irritate us and they make us angry. Sometimes, they cause us a lot of hurt, sometimes they cause us to be bitter or jealous. But like the little monk, we are not willing to let them go away.  We keep on carrying the baggage of the 'pretty lady' with us. We let them keep on coming back to hurt us, make us angry, make us bitter and cause us a lot of agony.  Why?  Simply because we are not willing to put down or let go of the baggage of the 'pretty lady'.  We should let go of the pretty lady immediately after crossing the river, that is after the unpleasant event is over. This will immediately remove all our agonies. There is no need to be further hurt by the unpleasant event after it is over.]

Science is organized knowledge.   Wisdom is organized life.

during this holiday, i saw my mom buying stuff using up a lot of plastic bags. well i came across to this website n it inspired me to do something for my mom. but after i done it she said, “aiya, too small la, i buy a lot of stuff one…” haih.. nevermind la… at least i try.. well, this is how i did it.. let’s learn bout it.. kinda lazy wanna write long looooooooooooooooooooooong words, so, let the pictures do the talking…hehehehe… it’s just a silly n simple idea to share with…=)

sew accordingly...

well, u use the sewing machine, sew both side first…

this is the 2nd stage

sew another one... n insert it into the 1st pouch... hehehehehe.. no need to terbalik it la...

then we cut 2 pieces of handles.. begin to sew it too...

sew it at both long ends..

oh, this one ar, need to turn it over.. took some time... need to iron it later... to make it straight n silky.. hehehehe

using the pins, let it stay on position... hehehehe.. this could be tedious... but don

sew everything together... then it is done...

yeah... this is how it looks like... jingle bell jingle bell..

well. try to turn it over... it becomes another bag... one bag can be used for 2 occasions... hehehehe.. i found this accidentally...

hehehehe… i hope u guys enjoy doing it.. i did actually.. til i can’t stop doing… i have more projects going on… but currently now taking a break… thank to the old sewing machine… hehehehe.. though it’s slow…

hehe… this is quite easy to do n it’s tasty..=) a friend of mine wanted to bake some cookies for her friends, so we tried this recipe n voila, it’s easy n tasty…=)

found it on this website… http://www.bestchocolatecookies.com/

First, cream the butter and sugars, add egg, vanilla and condensed milk, fold in other ingredients and mix to a dough.

Next, roll into small balls and flatten place on a foil lined baking tray and bake for 20 minutes on 180 sprinkle with chocolate crumbs and cool.

• 250g butter
• 150g white sugar
• 50g brown sugar
• 100g rolled oats
• 400g flour
• 10g baking powder
• 250g chocolate chips
• 100ml condensed milk
• 2 eggs
• 100g cocoa powder and  i tsp of vanilla

(for us it’s a bit sticky to roll it, so we put some butter on our hands when we did it. Using a foil could be expensive, well, we just “sapu” the butter on the tray.. hahahahahahaha… my mom’s oven it’s quite slow, so we baked it on 200 Celsius for 10 minutes n 180 Celsius for another 10 minutes, when it was baked, it looks like chipsmore… hehehehehehe… we added white chocolate chips before n it looks nicer. added walnut, almond… so that it’s not too sweet… but we omit oats, cos my friend said it looks ugly on the picture on net… WELL, i did this PROJECT with my two 8 years old cousins n a 10 years old cousin *who of course, mess up the kitchen…* but they were PrOuD with their performance… ya ya, so is their proud papa n mama too… oh ya, another thing, u can bought those ingredients at TESCO, cheap n u have them all… Tesco brand chocolate chips are nice… hehehehehe.. sadly i don’t have any pictures to share with, but i strongly recommend everyone to try it at home if u’re free…=)

well, that’s all for now… a bit of easy cookie recipe to share with everyone… hehehehehehe…. let’s try it!!!

this is how the dough
looks like… below is how it’s bake done…

have u ever work very very hard to achieve something, but on that day, u feel so awful coming out from the exam room? i just did. well, it feels very very terrible… really, feeling like i’ve done my best but that’s just not good enough. i dunno. i feel stupid flashing it back, but it’s the fact, the least excuse i can give myself. i look quite miserable. i feel numb. my head is down and i just coulnd’t smile anymore. it’s like all my hard work burnt away in a split second. i never ask for more, but the magic just didn’t work. well actually i just need to release my fear. i was far more afraid than before. i know this is stupid, this is wasting time for longing and remembering something that is done, that is over. i wanna be the real me, happy joyous.. but i think i suddenly lost my courage. it really feels stupid. feel so weak… so sad… oh, silly me… i know i can do better, i did my very best to calm down… but what to do… what is done is done… no point crying over spilt milk… i just feel very discourage…

时间过得真快，转眼间六个星期过去了。还记得刚开始的时候，要好早好早起床，然后要提着一个重重的记录簿，走路上学去。当时，我还想过着学生的生活，一下子转换环境，变变变，变成老师了，哇，好不习惯哦！现在习惯了做老师的生活，有点上瘾了。可是偏偏在这时候就是要回到学院去了。

唉！在学校的最后一天，还让我真忘怀。我没事先前告诉学生我即将离开，也没有准备什么礼物送给她们，就这样打算在最后一天告诉她们老师不会再教她们了。可是我只能向一年级一个班级的学生交待，其余的四班都没机会和她们谈话。孩子们真可爱，有些知道我们即将的离去，跑过来拥抱我们。我的确有点下了一跳。她们抱得可真舒服，可是我真的很感动。我在班上孩子们道别的时候，有些小孩很可爱的盘问我接下来的去向，问我还会回来叫她们吗，然后就露出甜美的笑容，伸出小手，紧握着我的手，向她们的额头轻轻点了一下，献上祝福，然后又若无其事的蹦蹦跳跳去了。还有一位更可爱，她不忘了赞美每天乱穿衣服的老师。在这六个星期期间我已偷偷拍了她们不少可爱动作的照片，真的很搞笑。

做老师真的好劳心啊！每一个小动作都能够影响孩子们。回到学院去我要好好提升自己，希望将来能够给孩子更多知识，更多欢乐。

teacher: look here, look here….=)

girls: teacher, may i drink water?

i elak here, elak there… cover my cute face… still got me inside the picture..

pretty girls…=)

mari.. mari… sale sale sale… (jumble sale)

有时候，上学的路程回选择乘巴士。有时候巴士好多人，有时候有幸的话会有空位子坐下。大家人挤人，有老有少，莘莘学子穿着整齐的校服，阿嫲阿公上巴刹，马印华裔，形形色色的衣着，大家都为自己的的目的地而奔波。巴士很多时候都姗姗来迟，更常在早上的时候挤满乘客。在巴士上晃来晃去几乎是司空见惯的事了。巴士司机有时候为了乘客的安全也免不了破口大骂，严厉警告巴士上的乘客不要站在门口开关边。

穿着整齐校服的莘莘学子，在巴士上最缺位子的时候，从不坐下，他们都把巴士上的位子让给更需要坐下的阿公阿嫲。曾经有一位阿嫲在巴士上挤满人的时候邀请另一位外阿嫲坐下巴士上的空位，阿嫲告诉她的朋友：“学生们不会坐下的，你坐下吧。来吧，来吧。”阿嫲的朋友犹疑了好久才放心地坐下。有好几次，我都亲自见证巴士上的年轻人，凡有老人家上巴士都把自己的座位让给老人家。年轻人敬老的精神让我有了思考的空间。

曾经我感叹大马的教育制度只注重在学识和技术上。我自己都觉得好反感。在报章和学校都常常看见令人乍舌的新闻都已司空见惯。一个小小的动作，让我觉得，我们的教育培育了人才。敬老是我们东方人优美的文化。仅仅在一个巴士上，一个小小的动作，让我感到大马的教育制度在某些程度上有了人文的成就。

其实，乘巴士最大的感触，莫贵于巴士上呈现大马年轻一辈温馨感人的人情味。就算巴士在怎么的摇摆，都摇动不了这些国家未来主人翁孝敬长辈的精神。

大马是一块福地，大马的未来主人翁有福气，我国的未来有救了。

the 2nd phase of practikum just left only 1 more week to go… wow… what i can say i wow.. time flies… the children are great, they are really cute…i just dislike the rph part and the wake-up-early part… hahaha… this time, i’ve really learned a lot… the entire school environment is totally different from what i’ve expected… but it is a great experience that nurtures me n make me think…

what i can say is, i am fortunate i’m still a trainee students… ahahahaha… being a teacher is a noble and tough job. it is really a tiring job… not physically, but emotionally and mentally… u always plan n plan n plan for the sake and for the best for the children… and in the end, what makes u love them most is their greetings to “Good morning Miss Yeow…”, their notion to smile so happily when they see u…

that’s the bestest thing being a teacher…